Before i start, lemme say that this will be an emo post... So for those of you peeps who can't stand emo stuff, you're invited to leave this blog. :)
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Well, PW is finally over! It will NOT come back to haunt me again, and the same applies to chinese... Budden, even though its over, somehow i don't feel any enthusiasm... But nevertheless, like, yay, its all over now... Goodbye J1, hello J2...
Lots of stuff have been going on in my mind these few days, and i refused to think about it till after OP... So now that its over, these thoughts somehow automatically took over my head. I can't exactly say i'm satisfied with my J1 life...
Looking back, lots of stuff have happened... How i wish they were all happy stuff, but sadly, its not... Sometimes I wonder, does anyone sense how am i feeling now, and understand that? Its not that everyone's going on faster than me; Its just that everyone's moving on normally, while i'm not moving at all...
I was thinking about this while on the bus ride back home today... A wise person once told me something, and i thought, "Nah, that could never happen." My other self: Terry, my dear friend, what a dumb and naive thought that was... My consciousness: How damn right you are, buddy... Now that it has hit me, i have absolutely no stinkin' idea what to do. Well, i can't blame anyone but myself, isn't it? No one can help me, only myself... Oh well, that sucks, but life has to go on... Now, i just gotta think more about the words "priorities" and "responsibility"... Screw "popularity" and "image", screw them all... _________________________________________________________________ "I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident, Cuz you don't understand, I do what I can, Sometimes I don't make sense..." - Linkin Park, 'Faint'
faux.fire burned out at
8:13 PM
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Well, chinese was officially over yesterday... I hope i don't need to retake again next year... But now, i shan't worry about that... For there is the final phase of PW tomorrow... And that, is the OP... After months of blood, sweat and tears, its all finally coming to an end... I really wanna thank my group members for everything... Though there were hiccups in the beginning and the middle, everything turned out pretty ok in the end. :) So now, let's all give it our best shot tomorrow! ___________________________________________________________________ "Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored..." - Linkin Park, 'Faint'
faux.fire burned out at
5:03 PM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Hmmn, i know i've posted these videos before... But i just can't get sick of them...
Corporeal - Halo Theme
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LAGQ - Loose Canon
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I WANNA PLAY LIKE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
faux.fire burned out at
9:53 PM
Friday, October 26, 2007
Today was the sort of "official" last day of school... Haha, my first "last day of school" for JC life... Well, that relieved feeling i always get at last days of schools didn't seem to hit me this year. Perhaps it has got something to do with the coming GCE 'A' Level Chinese exams this coming monday (which i only knew yesterday), plus the I&R that we gotta do for our PW and lastly, the OP...
Speaking of OP, well, my group' is doing pretty fine. Just the nitty gritty and some Q&A that needs to be polished... I really hope to get an 'A' for it, though my expectations for it aren't exactly that high. A good 'B' may just satisfy me, but an 'A' is still better. Haha. A few more days left, jiayou people!
Something strange is happening in my mind... Like i'm indifferent yet very affected by things... Lolz, this is making me confused at how am i supposed to be feeling right now. Maybe i'm supposed to be feeling emo, but cos i've got so many people who have perfected the skill of being indifferent, thus giving me a little bit of that indifferent aura. Lolz... I hope i get those thoughts in my head sorted out soon... :P
Haha, after OP on wednesday, its gonna be lots of sleep, play and work out time... Woowee~! :P
faux.fire burned out at
10:13 PM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
The results of the promos were released... Thank goodness i made it through... I so barely scraped the 2H2, 2H1 requirement... Yes, thats a good thing, now that i can go up to the 2nd half of the JC life, no strings attached... But looking back at my performance, A voice inside me says, "You dumbass, you could have done a lot better..."
Many things i could have done, but i didn't... Many topics i could have covered, but i didn't... Many times i could have gotten enough rest, but i didn't... I was distracted. This made me got what i got now... Why didn't i focus? Why can't i say no? What is wrong with my priorities?
Back after the mid-years, i promised myself... "I am gonna get at least a B for the 3 science subjects..." I broke that promise. I even failed my best subject. That's unforgivable... Not because i didn't have the ability to, but because I couldn't bear to say no... And now, i am guilty for my results now... I just don't know what to say. I don't dare to promise myself anymore that i'll do better next year... But i have to, if i want a future.
As for now, i'll have my lucky stars to thank... And i hope there are quite a few left to help me through my JC life... Come JC2, its gonna be tough... With chinese and the wretched PW out of the way, I had better make good use of that extra time, to get what i truly deserve...
Lolz, i sound like i'm emo-ing. But dun worry people, i'm NOT. Just a little self-reflection, after what Sok Yin told me... "I just realised how lucky u are..." How right u are my dear... How damn right u are... ___________________________________________________________________ "I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident, Cos' you don't understand I do what I can, Sometimes I don't make sense..." - Linkin Park, 'Faint'
faux.fire burned out at
11:33 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Hey ho the merry oh! Finally, the WR is finally DONE!!!!!!!!! Let's all rejoice...... That's 40% of our burden put down already, my friends and fellow countrymen. 40 freakin' huge percent man... Never in my life have i did a project till so siao before... Well, we have all done our best. So for now, let's all toast to our hopeful EE grade! Cheers, to all who have put in blood, sweat and tears to this WR...
Now, to the main point of this post... Today, i should say, is a VERY insightful day. Now that 2007 is coming to an end soon... Its time for some reflections... Lots to think about, even more issues to address... We've got a lot to do, my fellow CLs...
Oh well, now, its the last big 40% to chiong le: the PW OP... Hang in there people! Less than a month to go!!! WOOHOO!!!
faux.fire burned out at
1:03 AM
Monday, October 08, 2007
Lol, finally got some time to catch up on Bleach... Chiong-ed like 20+ episodes in a day? Haha. I watch and watch... Till i'm addicted to this song liao... So here it is! Enjoy!
Yui - Rolling Star
Now, let's watch 1 episode before i go to school. Haha. "BAN-KAI~!" - Kurosaki Ichigo :P
faux.fire burned out at
9:00 AM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Finally, my dear friends and countrymen... We can all get a good sleep...
After like god knows how many weeks of graveyard shifts... After all those pissifying GP homework that made us stay up till like 3am to do... After all those late nights studying... Finally, the thing that all those were for... Its over... The freakin' promos are finally over!!! Hahaha~!
This feeling of being liberated... Its just fantastic... Haha. The one big major thingy about JC1 life is all gone now. Whats left is the chinese 'A' Level and PW... After that, we are really free for the year. Haha. So for now, lets all relax, chill out. Go repay the dream bank all those sleep debts you all owe them. For the interests they charge ain't cheap... Haha.
Let's go and enjoy, before the results are released... When that comes, my favourite phrase will come out of my mouth again: "Embrace the horror..." But nevertheless, i'm gonna put that at the back of my head now... Even though i very well know that i have a damn good chance of screwing it up, but its better not to think about that now. Haha. So, for now, there ain't no such thing called exams. Hehe.
Ok, its Bleach time. Gotta catch up. Haha. Ciao people! Cheers, good luck to our promos! :) _________________________________________________________________ "The sun goes down... I feel the light betray me..." - Linkin Park, 'Papercut'
