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Tuesday, July 29, 2008
When will I awake from my sleep..?
faux.fire burned out at
8:26 PM
Friday, July 25, 2008
100 days left... this time 2 years ago, i was free.. free to do the things the way i wanted to... free to help myself the way u wanted to... free to decide what i wanna do... but now, 2 years later from that time, i am the complete opposite. in this 2 years, countless should-not-have's and i-should-have-known's went through my mind countless times... but of which, 2 of them really got me quite badly... its like i was once a free bird in an environment where there were little or no politics, in an environment where there's laughter everywhere... even though shadows often bring in the darkness occasionally, but light still shines through it, lighting the way... but now, everything's changed... things are so open now that every little action will be noticed and gossiped about... in such an environment, you really gotta watch your back... the transition of environment also brings instability to one's life... such instability more often than not induces one to have naive thoughts and rash decisions... but sometimes, such decisions may actually reflect how one actually feels, and they very much stay in the mind for a very long time... now, i'm in a very very big fix... i can neither move on, nor back my actions, have hurt before, hence, i don't want to hurt again... its gonna be hard, here on out...
faux.fire burned out at
11:31 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
its hard... now i know how it feels... and now i understand why, because its as though it's still tied down to something... i understand now... i really do... _________________________________________________________________ "I tried, to go on like I never knew you... I'm awake, but my world is half asleep..."- Backstreet Boys, 'Incomplete'_________________________________________________________________ *something random now...*I really think ninjitsu is cool, and i wanna learn it. "I do not need to use strength to defeat you; I use technique to defeat you." That's what the ninja master said on NGC's "Fight Science". Nice. :)
faux.fire burned out at
9:45 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
something i said recently sort of rang some bells in my head... "Your mouth is so big that when you speak, you talk in Dolby Surround Sound!" i seriously should change my bad habit... i seriously should shut up... i will not be someone i hate... i will be myself, once again... now i know why Vaizards exist... maybe that's what Kubo Tite wanted to show? with that many Hollows around, even Shinigamis have to go through Hollowification to survive... ________________________________________________________________ "It seems like everyday, I make mistakes, I just can't get it right..."- Simple Plan, 'Shut Up'
faux.fire burned out at
9:09 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
I wanna ask everyone this question: "Why?" _______________________________________________________________ Everyone's a Hollow, heartless and hiding their faces... Beneath the veil of innocence, I see the aura of resent... The way how Hollows compete for and kill each other, just to make what was others theirs for them to be stronger, gives rise to the higher form, the Menos, bringing destruction to where ever they go... In this world, lives this philosophy, in which I greatly despise but have no power to change it, its called "Eat or be eaten, kill or be killed".
faux.fire burned out at
7:56 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
 There's a saying that goes, "Ri you suo si, ye you suo meng"... Which kinda translates to what you think about during the day, you'll dream of it at night... And sitting down here, i really agree to that saying... It all started on that day, new environment, new firsts, new what-nots... People tend to notice the more outspoken or rah-rah ones, but for me, I tend to notice the opposite... Now, after so long, some things never change... and i always hope, "If only lalaland truly exists..." Its like i can get carried away into my daydreams, and i never feel like waking up from it... The urge to know how one is doing, the urge to protect, the urge to show care and concern, and the urge to lend a shoulder... All these are what that are reflected in my daydreams, and now i understand what it means, and what they imply... Some things just never go away...
faux.fire burned out at
8:45 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
This shall be a titleless post since what i'm gonna type is gonne be like super random. :P Well, its now into week 4 of term 3... Prelims seem so near yet so far, and the way i see my peers starting their revision engines, i feel stressed, like for real. >.< Got our results back... Did pretty ok, but given the time now and the time left to the big 'A's, its quite bad... Got a lot to work on, but GOT NO MOOD! Zzz... Just 1 transition metals tutorial just now is enough to drain half my life force away... Sian man... How the hell do you guys tahan? :p Next week is RHD week... Hope the activities we planned will be a success, and I hope my intentions for doing this is realised... I made a promise to myself, but sometimes things happen and its making it very difficult for me to keep that promise... >.< For some reason, i keep daydreaming about wielding swords these few days... Hope its not cause of the frustrations kept in me, but the thought of having such "violent" daydreams is starting to make me wonder am i watching too much Bleach. Haha. Oh well,its anice anime. Hehe. maybe its fate or not, but i always happen to see you when u're at your weakest, and that's when i try to show care; thats the least i can do as a friend, right?
faux.fire burned out at
2:54 PM
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