What has 10 long years in CHS done to me...? Since secondary 2, i've been involved in either projects or events that also involves some girls. And
every year, some kind of weird feelings start to move around in you towards one particular girl... It gets into your head... You just smile when she chats with you on MSN, or sends you an sms, and even a glimpse of her will make your worst of days go away... I don't know why, it's just like that...
Every year, I keep telling myself, "Forget it man, it's all one-way, and you don't even stand a freakin' chance. She's
untouchable for you... So just
FORGET it..." So
every year, i just try to forget it... It's not the most pleasant of feelings, but it ain't nice...
During secondary 4, it was a little better... At least my few good pals in good ol' Sec 4-10 was fun enough to make me forget about the girl i had in mind in secondary 3... So i thought, finally, no more such emotions welling up in me... Yay, so now, the 'O' Levels...
However, this year, it's no difference... New environment with people of the XX chromosomes, so now a new girl, and the feelings are welling up inside again... Although i'm still not sure about it, but there's no surprises there... And my stupid ego was just
DUMB enough to type some stupid things in my MSN nick, and now because of people talking, we become a lil embarrassed to see each other... Or at least maybe just me...Yes, I can hear it now... I'm dumb, right? No surprise there either... I know i started this crap, and i'm not against people talking about it either for i have myself to blame for all this... Blame my utter stupidity... Haiz...
One day, when i'm sure about all these, i'll tell you. I'm still not really sure whether is it the correct thing or not at this moment, so right now, let's just pretend all these never happened... We're just people currently studying in AJC for the JAE... Nothing ever happened. Most probably i'll have everything thought out properly by the time the 'O' Level results are released... So yea, i'll keep you posted...As for me now, i'll just keep telling myself "Don't even
think about it man, it's all one-way. You know it, and you don't even stand a freakin' chance. She's
untouchable for you... So forget it...
For now..."
