The results of the promos were released...
Thank goodness i made it through...
I so barely scraped the 2H2, 2H1 requirement...
Yes, thats a good thing, now that i can go up to the 2nd half of the JC life, no strings attached...
But looking back at my performance,
A voice inside me says, "You dumbass, you could have done a lot better..."
Many things i could have done, but i didn't...
Many topics i could have covered, but i didn't...
Many times i could have gotten enough rest, but i didn't...
I was distracted. This made me got what i got now...
Why didn't i focus? Why can't i say no? What is wrong with my priorities?
Back after the mid-years, i promised myself...
"I am gonna get at least a B for the 3 science subjects..."
I broke that promise. I even failed my best subject. That's unforgivable...
Not because i didn't have the ability to, but because I couldn't bear to say no...
And now, i am guilty for my results now... I just don't know what to say.
I don't dare to promise myself anymore that i'll do better next year...
But i have to, if i want a future.
As for now, i'll have my lucky stars to thank...
And i hope there are quite a few left to help me through my JC life...
Come JC2, its gonna be tough...
With chinese and the wretched PW out of the way,
I had better make good use of that extra time, to get what i truly deserve...
Lolz, i sound like i'm emo-ing.
But dun worry people, i'm
NOT.
Just a little self-reflection, after what
Sok Yin told me...
"I just realised how lucky u are..."
How right u are my dear... How damn right u are...
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"I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident,Cos' you don't understand I do what I can,Sometimes I don't make sense..."- Linkin Park, 'Faint' 