100 days left...
this time 2 years ago, i was free..
free to do the things the way i wanted to...
free to help myself the way u wanted to...
free to decide what i wanna do...
but now, 2 years later from that time,
i am the complete opposite.
in this 2 years, countless should-not-have's and i-should-have-known's went through my mind countless times...
but of which, 2 of them really got me quite badly...
its like i was once a free bird in an environment where there were little or no politics,
in an environment where there's laughter everywhere...
even though shadows often bring in the darkness occasionally,
but light still shines through it, lighting the way...
but now, everything's changed...
things are so open now that every little action will be noticed and gossiped about...
in such an environment,
you really gotta watch your back...
the transition of environment also brings instability to one's life...
such instability more often than not induces one to have naive thoughts and rash decisions...
but sometimes, such decisions may actually reflect how one actually feels,
and they very much stay in the mind for a very long time...
now, i'm in a very very big fix...
i can neither
move on, nor back
my actions, have hurt before,
hence, i don't want to hurt again...
its gonna be hard, here on out...
