Was blog-hopping a while ago till i chanced upon this picture off a friend's blog...

Kinda reminds me of my days in jc...

The endless cycle of eat, sleep, work, with the occasional DOTA games...

Yup, that's about it...

Sometimes I wished I could have done more, like did more sports so my fitness would not be so cui now, or being more active in the area that I have a passion in, like the life sciences... I had the time to take up attachments and stuff, but I did not...

I guess I had too many commitments in other places, doing things to help other people till I had totally forgotten about myself... In those days, my mind was pretty much just about 'A' levels, guitar, 15/07 and BGR, and nothing about being me and doing things for myself. The stuff that I did in those areas are very good and meaningful things, but somehow I didn't go home feeling as fulfilled or satisfied as I should be. I see people enjoying themselves and become satisfied and fulfilled individuals, but I can't feel the same...

It was always "others before self"... Perhaps I focused on the "others" so much till I forgot the "self"? I told myself things are gonna change once NS starts, but 11 months in and i'm still feeling the same... Giving way to other's interests while putting my own on hold... Maybe that's why i'm such a "pillow" now, absorbing all the impact from the "rocks" and not hitting back while remaining relatively unharmed...

Is that me? I'm still trying to find out...